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Three Winters Have Passed

ricky m — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 05:56:24 +0000

it was summer 2006 black creek .wisconsin . i used to have a small bussiness a saw mill, i place an add at a local newspaper looking for a secretary i get a few calls and i fanally met this girl for the interview . she was blonde and beautyful but not only that. she was the dj at the only radio station in spanish in the area at the time. but sinse the radio was closing she was looking for job. i do not know she was the dj until she mentioned in the interview.anyway she get the job and she work from her home .we just see each other maybe once per day or ebery other day for the next 2 months until i decide to close the bussiness do to a few of personal problems end i tell my employees about the closing including her . i tell her that i was sorry for that .she said that was fine that dnt worry. a day or two later her mom call me on my cell phone and ask me .that what happen why i fired her daughder .that if she do something grong, or if she lost money or a check .that she usally collects from my costumers , i told her the same that i was sorry but i have to go out of bussiness because personal problemes .she tell me that was ok but that linda her daugther was at her room very sad and that she never saw her like. that that was not because the job but that she feels very special simphaty she ask me if i can call her to make her feel bether i call her the same day and ask her what happen and i ask her about her feelings she tell me that was true but she dnt know anything about my personal life anything of me i just tell her the true about my past that i have been married and have kids she was sad but said that was ok we never go out or kiss one day i have the chance but i was to nervous and my legs were shaking and i miss my chance we continue talking but sinse her family find out about my past she was having a lot of arguments whit her parents because that she said that was bether if we dnt talk any more time past and i move to chicago one day i email her i send her a love song but she dnt know it was me after a few days i tell it was me she tell me that i was reall bad that after all this time i have her imail and never imail her that she never forget about me that she thinks of me every second .sinse then we keep in contact via email for a few months she was in appleton wi and i in chicago we were planing in go out but never go because again she said her family prefer to see her deaht than whit me that was not posible to be together that was bether to say goodbye i send her a bucket of roses that was by valentines day 2007 we dnt talk for a few weeks i was trying to forget her but was to late she was in my heart and my mind every single day fanaly i met her one day in milwaukee sinse she move there now she was working as a reporter for a tv station there but her mother was whit us all the time and we can do nothing and again she was having hard times whit her mother because of me we dnt talk again for some time until one day she text me to see how i was we talk for a few more months until one day i was suposed to pick her to go for diner she dnt answer the phone ever again that dnt keep me from thinking of her every single day i look at her my space often just to see how is she doing and there is not almost a day that i dnt cry for her sinse then 3 winters had gone 3 febrary s has past

How I met my soul mate

jamestee — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 13:00:00 +0000

This is a story of how I meet and connected with my soul mate, and our first date:

The first day we connected, I heard you talking, joined in the conversation. I was immidiately attracted to you. I sought out to have more conversation with you. We took a break by the back of the building and talked much more in private. I knew you were someone I was going to be connected to right away! I asked you to stay after work to chat with me more. You stayed, which shocked me, since you were working a double that day! We connected again that night as well, and we laughed and shared thoughts and feelings. We exchanged e-mail addresses and I wrote you for the first time that night from work, cause I so wanted to talk with you again. In that letter I know we had joked about us getting a one bedroom apartment and how we would arrange it with the four of us together, who would have ever have known that we would literally go there one day. I only worked there for two weeks! I only worked with you that once in which we connected. Got fired shortly afterwards, we never worked together again after that night, but we had already connected and started in motion a relationship.

Our first date! What a night! I think I could write a book on it if I had the time! We had e-mailed and chatted online for about a week. I had learned that she liked Arabic things, so I looked online for an Arabic restraunt to take her too. I wanted to be sure that she knew that I listened to her, and that I cared about what she said. I had to deal with the fact of telling her I was still married, but separated in mind and in spirit. I had practiced all day long with my mother and my best friend Marie on how to tell you this. I was sick to my stomach about it, cause I stood to lose her if I didn’t approach it the right way. I knew what was in my heart and I needed to be sure to convey it correctly to her. The Arabic place was very nice, she was even suprised when the belly dancer came out and started dancing. Since again it was something she had conveyed to me in that week about something she was very much into. I think she knew right there and then, that I was serious about us and this was not a fly by night relationship I was working on. I had arranged for us to go to the landing in downtown Jacksonville that night. I wanted to be close to the water, cause I knew we were both stronger emotionally next to it. We walked around a bit and enjoyed the Christmas decorations. She was like a kid in a candy store seeing the huge lighted tree and all the lights and ornaments. I walked with her all the while thinking about what needed to be discussed. I tried to find a warm quiet place and looked around for one. I remember telling her I had something to say, and she stared me dead in the eyes, which made it even harder. I told her, and of course she was shocked inside to hear what I had to say. We walked some more by the water while I gave her time to internalize it in her head. We ended up sitting down in a pavillion next to the water where we talked about it more. It ended with both of us still feeling connected. We walked a little more, and I stopped her and gave her a big hug. This was our first true embrace, we almost kissed there as well. I know I had wanted too, but she turned her head before I planted my lips. We ended up on a bench outside while we watched the Christmas tree perform a light show in sync with music. I moved her so I could massage her shoulders for her. We soon ended up with her in my arms sidways on a bench upstairs. We finally kissed, and it was like nothing I could ever forget. I had kissed many times before but with her it was pure electricity. I was already falling in love with her. We had both broken so many rules that night in regards to what we said we were that night. It was like the rule book in life for ourselves was thrown out! We had both agreed on that we don’t like to kiss on first dates!! I guess it was meant to be, and I now had seen her in a totally new light. From that point on I knew that I was going to have a relationship with this woman. Now to what degree I had no idea.

We never stopped talking from the one night that we meet at work. We have talked EVERY SINGLE NIGHT ever since then. Sometimes for many many hours, sometimes for only a short moment. One thing though that we agreed on is without a spoken word is that we would never let a night go without somehow connecting. I cannot begin to tell you how connected I feel with her. We feel every single emotion together and every single thought. We don’t even have to talk together to know what the other is feeling. It is like we are twins or something and are connected at the mind together. It really does amaze me in that sense, that we are so totally connected in mind and spirit. It has been about three months from that infamous first date, and we have not stopped loving each other since. We are now in the middle of planning to move out, and start a new life together. Who would have ever known from a simple meeting of the minds that we would have grown to love each other to this level of understand and commitment!

James

3/23/09

“escape”

inadaria — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 05:49:50 +0000

I don’t know how to start this ,Who will read this anyway…

Everything is on my mind but I don’t know how to write it.

It’s been 3 years now but until now nothing in this white screen… bahala na.

Let see how will I ended this story

Love, Work and studies can’t go together…” A simple yet cynical statement I have always believed in ever since. Not until a special guy came into my life and taught me how to make everything possible….

I can barely remember how it all started but I’m sure that I’m thankful it did. It all began one day in March 6 of 2005, one of my busiest days ever in my life. The whole org was problematic about the seminar. As part of this .I belong of the unforgettable class (everyone is working student) that every seconds is very much important to us. Most of my classmates were so busy making preparations on how we can make it that seminar, But I on the other hand was not busy as them that day.(As usual,walang pakialam) I really don’t care people around me besides I’m tired that time .Work and study is only in my mind…no more. Nothing .If I think I can , I don’t prioritize on it. and I don’t want to put anything on my mind if it’s not about work and school. For me were just in one square area drawing our future in our own way and as they said its in your hand who makes your life better, that’s why I don’t care to anyone only for myself. I just believe and live for myself that’s it besides gagraduate na ko next month(buti nmn).No more exams, no terror prof, no more epal classmate and no more books to buy (yeheeeyyyyyyyyy).

So, I idly making kwentuhan to my former classmate instead of helping my boring classmate but the truth is im asking a help on how we can make that. .As I entered my classroom again I was shocked that they choose me as a president of the seminar. MY GOLLy! ME? Why me? As my first response, OO IKAW AT WALA ng IBA PA.as my prof said, that I didn’t notice that he already came in our room,

“Your classmate will blamed you Ms Daria if you will not take it seriously ““don’t worry there’s another class will help you, they will be here on our next meeting One guy is the president of the other class so both president will share their knowledge about this seminar,”undersand?

“Dismissed! “As my prof ended our class

So I have no choice but to stand as a president

March 8 2005(one sweet day)

That was the time I had a chance to meet my special guy.

Until now im confused…uhmmm. How those classes becomes one? Their fulltime student and were not .maybe it’s about TIME management. Or maybe it happen for a reason just to meet this guy. Actually, the first time I saw him as he stand as the president of other class. He looks bading.(blah blah blah..ang daldal xe) It’s as if we know each other’s names, exchanged some hi’s and hello’s and that’s just it. But this particular day we had a chance to chat a little bit longer. I can say that we enjoyed each other’s company. Little did I know that that moment would eventually change my life…?(lakas ng pakiramdam ko nho).

As my prof discussed our duties and responsibilities to that seminar all I know is we can do it with help of each other. And so after that day, we had a lot more chats that eventually became conversations. He calls me at home and we would talk for half an hour or so.(thanks to suncell) Talking about seminar seminar seminar but days goes by it’s already our personal life and not that seminar anymore.

.At school, I look forward to our afternoon chats. We really enjoy each other He never fails to give me sweets and after class eating at jolibee to discuss the seminar… I remember.(at that time I didn’t know why.. but later on he told me it meant “Take care”… corny…. but sweet…). And so we became so close to each other that we never noticed that sometimes we were already isolating ourselves from the others, that they began to tease us as an item. even the staff of the fastfood Still childish at that time (sabagay until now) I decided to take a step back. I don’t even know if he noticed that, but before we knew it we were back on track. I guess we had a connection that keeps us back together… How could I ever forget the time he treats pizza our whole class and he told me his just celebrating that he met me,NAKS!(nambola pa). That was the time I felt I really was special to him. He would call me every now and then to check on me and to update with all that’s happening in school, news in tv patrol ,his dogs and asked about my work in Max’s restaurant .asking how many calling cards I received from the customers.(haha),

All is just friendship but we knew inside our hearts there’s something more behind that.

Feelings that we both never explain and never find the answer what’s inside those feelings

And then the special event comes. By this time, I felt something special about him nah.(.But actually the feeling is mutual.) I yearn to be with him, to talk to him and to laugh at his silly corny jokes more often.

Both class our very happy because it’s a successful seminar with our guest TIM YAP, yup you heard it right its Tim Yap.a model an entrepreneur and an event organizer. Our prof is very proud of us. Were both happy that day but again deep inside very sad because we will never see each other again. He cried and I was shocked why he cried for me and I didn’t notice that tears also flow in my eyes. But of course we don’t want to happened. the special friendship is there, nothing change and we don’t want to change it anything .what happen was we talk more, were dating ,the more we become close to each other I fondly remember how he nervously and anxiously asked that controversial query and when he heard my reply he was even more confused. I told him “Oo pero hindi” I was so perplexed I didn’t want to lose him but I was also not ready to commit to a relationship yet.

It was contrary to what I believe in, in the first place that love, and work and studies don’t mix. And I was too afraid to try. But it didn’t matter whether I answered the question concretely or not we just picked up where we left off. His sweetness and sense of humor always gets into me but I somehow don’t want to let him know that I feel that way. So we were struggling with our petty fights and childish arguments. A lot of times I admit I was at fault. Sometimes I get irritated easily over senseless things. But what I admired about him is the fact that he never complains. He just wants to make our friendship as perfect as possible but I was the one who made it difficult for us. But after all the heartaches and headaches I caused him, he never gave up on me. The more I got to know him, the more I began to like him. So many things happened. Bittersweet things that made me appreciate life even more.

But I can’t seem to enumerate all of them because my mind doesn’t permit me to. But as we became closer the more I was afraid about how I felt. I was hesitant about what I feel. But same as before we disagree with a lot of things. It was as if we fight everyday… More and more people were thinking that we were a couple already, maybe because we were affected with each other’s actions and reactions. But we were just best of friends we would defensively answer them. Seriously, I consider what we have as something like were “on” but officially we’re not. In lighter terms, it’s what they call today as “MU”(sounds baduy ba). We were comfortable that way, more than friends but not really lovers. He wants to finally made things official. But I say nothing instead I just reply to him just continue what we have that time I want to say yes but im afraid of something.

Im afraid to have commitment. He understand because he knew my past , he knew why im afraid, he knew everything about me.

.he understand …he hate the set up it but he stand for the unofficial love. Were both happy that time …….very much happy

. But there are still “periods of darkness like before”. And in between these ups and downs something happened that really put our relationship on the rocks. It was as if we were both put to a test whether what we felt is only ephemeral or not. I prefer not to mention the details because we’ve moved on from it. What really matters now is that we were able to prove to ourselves that we really love each other that much. We actually called it quits at that time but after a month or so, we talked things over and got back together. And from then on we were inseparable.

As we graduated from college, things were entirely different for us. I worked in hotel he worked in FEU as Admin Staff. Our relationship remained as solid as a rock. I guess it was because we knew each other too well plus the friendship we share was well-rooted in love and trust, something we are thankful and proud of.

After a year, we managed to make it through we still argue sometimes but the years have taught us to be matured individuals and talk things over. We’re not a perfect couple but we try our best to be one. We learned to keep trying, to be more understanding and to compromise with our differences. In the end it’s still unofficial and I hate my self for this.

This special guy’s still the same funny corny and moody as me . the same sweet and honest man. For those of you who don’t know whom I’m talking about, He’s none other than Mr. Mark Gil Hilario de Lunas, the guy who made me see things in a whole new way. My bes my adviser and my love. I learned a lot from our story and up to now I’m still discovering a lot of new things, even your not here anymore,

now I take back what I said earlier. Anything you pair with love is possible it just depends on how you deal with it and what you make out of it. And of course lift up everything to God almighty because he knows what would make you happy. I’m glad I took the risk of loving him because if I didn’t I wouldn’t have felt the happiness I have in my heart right now.

I love you so much Bes. And everyday I thank God for letting me know someone as loving, as sweet and as honest as you are. Thank you for keeping up with my mood swings and my tantrums. Thank you for your patience, for your never ending surprises and for your unconditional love. You’re not perfect, nobody is perfect anyway, but thank you for always trying to be one. I want you to know that I have learned to love everything about you. Though good and bad, I love you perfectly. And I’ll always will… You were a contradiction to everything I believe in. Before I met you; I didn’t know such a gentleman could exist. But to everything you were also an exception. An exception to the rule that men are born jerks and liars bec. You were never like that. I want to think that I am fortunate I met someone like you… but I believe that I am blessed because he gave you to me You were a good person to a lot of people but you gave your best to me. Words will never be enough… I am hurting, I am grieving… but the love and the memories you gave me gives me the strength to hang on to life. Life will never ever be the same without you but I know that you will always be watching over me. I love you so much and I will always will. I miss your advice “wag yan….”wag kang makulit”…u know…… “What’s the best is”…..”I think…..”cge na…..”ganto xe yan…alam mo ba…and of course “”relax”””……hahhaha .those words reminds me of you

it’s so hard for me.. this year is your firsts of everything.. of you not being here.. and of my feeling i’m on my own… it pains me so much whenever ocassions like this come and go..dati c mama lng ngayon na your two na,,all the important person in my life taken away from me. Am I really bad as what other person think about me.? I just feel your absence even more.. and i most especially felt .(wla na ko tagapangtanggol).. ’cause the blunt reality is ryt to my face.. you’re really never coming back.. never.. seeing you in sky when I look up is just tears and breaks my heart into bits and pieces.. i hate it.. i hate the feeling.. But I can’t do anything about it….but then I am thankful ’cause even though I can’t see you somehow I feel you’re here… I was still filled w/ so much love w/ the people around me. Your friend’s support and love just gave me enough strength to go on with that day that was equally supportive as well. Love was overflowing yesterday… but you can still feel that every beat of our hearts wished that they were spending the same day w/ you at a different circumstance… smiles and heartfelt stories filled the day… but everybody was missing the smiles and laughter you shared w/ us…the day was filled love… but not the kind of love you shared with me.. The kind of love that make my heart skip a beat… the love that made these knees weak… the love that made me feel complete, blissful and blessed. It’s so hard for me… that after feeling all these sorrow and pain i have to get back to my feet again… i can hardly get back on track and times like this make me loose some more steps again… but i have to. I feel that what I’m going through is hard yes, but it’s harder than you think… i have to be strong to face this but i have to be much stronger and overcome these emotions… sometimes i just want to feel numb.. And to say that I don’t care… i do that sometimes but at the end of the day reality still bite me… but it just bites me deeper and it hurts just so much more…

Bes, my mind and my heart is just so tired of this… why did you have to go so soon? You know, I didn’t want to wake up today thinking about what I have to do and the things I have to work just makes me weak even more… i just want the world to stop and give me enough time to mend my heart broken into bits and pieces today.. Time is just so unkind to me… but still here i am writing this… ’cause I realized there’s no other way but to get up and live my life… just pray for me there… i still can’t help it… tears flowed yesterday Bes… but not as hard as i thought it would… thank you for still looking after me.. Thank you for making sure I’ll be alright… im still not whole… i don’t know if i’ll ever be… but i’m just fine. my bes,my adviser, my kuya ,my tatay and my love, all is just a memory now.

A memory that I will treasure each day. all the smiles and laughter’s shared to anyone will always remind me that I make you happy also, do you think there someone will laugh in my corny jokes and give too much patience in my decision and toooooooo much patience on my attitude?..nunca,! For my being childish that sometimes I smiled and cried a lot…thank you for all the patience as everyday I get matured whenever you advice me,,,.

If I just knew, if I just knew…

I’m blaming myself for saying AYAW KO! As always sounds childish for asking a little favor, (smile ka nmn,) I miss these words.

, if I just knew, I will say YES in everything. If I just knew.

Ooops …my birthday is coming…..hah!

Anu kya surprise mo sakin…uhm…French fries? For sure kasamana tlga to. Letter? Handkerchief? Na lage ko niwawala…or ung german shepperd supposed to be na bbgy mu, hayyyyyy sayang! ako xe lage n lng ako xe, For sure no one will surprise me as you did…Hmmm, sana meron in other way. I know you will grant my wish as you always did…jowk! kainis! (selos nyan xa)hahah! I wish you are here. Of course NO ONE EVER REPLACE YOU.

Hope you are here to read this, I hope you are here,

If I could turn back time.I will make it official If I could turn back time.I will say yes If I could turn back time…i didn’t say goodbye If I could turn back time. I will not say that word If I could turn back time, I will say “im sorry” If I could turn back time I will not be jealous to anyone or to anything (“;)…promise! If I could turn back time. I will not say those words that make us separate If I could turn back time hnd na kita awayin ng because it’s just my trip… (“;) If I just could turn back time…I will answer your calls If I just could turn back time…..

How I wish I have takure of time quest that can turn back time…

I missed when you said”cge na” I missed when you said”puede na?” I missed when you said”magusap tayo” I missed when you said “anu to trip nnmn?” I missed when you said “ingat lage” I missed when you said”ako bahala” I missed when you said “I miss you” I missed when you said “I love you I missed everything about you

I’m sorry for making you cry I’m sorry for giving you headaches I’m sorry for making you sleepy at work I’m sorry for not replying in your messages I’m sorry for not saying yes I’m really sorry for saying ‘give me space” I’m really really sorry for saying goodbye I’m really really really sorry for everything.

Bes, Thank you

Thank you for the love Thank you for the memories Thank you for all the advice that’s make me matured Thanks for all the word you said that make me stronger Thank you for inspiring me Thank you for respecting me Thank you for the patience, long patience, long patience and long long long patience’ Thank you for the life you gave to me Thank you for being my bes,

I love you and I am missing you more each day…

I’m not the last but at least you make me special, there’s some guilt and regrets on my part, do you think losing you is the payment for all of this. I don’t think so because you don’t want me to cry.Right? please guide me in all my decision .(hayan,,y I make this letter nov1 instead in your bday,,?dunno .eh,,pinaalala mu lng ng ganto..oi ina,,ina naku,,ha naku ina,,ina ka tlaga.halika ka nga d2.!)hahha Can I shout now to hear how much I miss and I love you? For sure somebody already did it…uhmmm… I’ll try to visit you sa paguwi ko ha, and im really really sorry again. I blamed my self for what happened to us…dnt worry I’m starting to share this to my friends on what we have, even to my family na dn,atleast to ease the pain,,sayang talaga. If you are just here… I will not be unfair to you anymore. Hayan I make a letter to you to make it special wherever you are .at least nasasabi kona nho, even in the letter but at least I said it and I meant all this…pinaiyak mo nmn ako but then it’s a tears of remembering you.(cguro ur saying ;”;ikaw tlga”halika ka nga d2…..hayyyyyyy!.. Just remember everything and I hope all will be same if I saw you there. For sure mabait na ko pag andyan na ko.wag mu kong gugulatin but im expecting surprises coming from my angel and that’s you…nyahhhaha… I ended this letter with smile and next Nov 1 again, dnt asked y I choose this day xe I also dnt know (ngek).miss you my angel!!

Within my book of memories,
Are special thoughts of you.
And all the many nice things
You often say and do –

As I turn the pages,
And recall each single thought,
I realize the happiness
That knowing you has brought

There are memories of the times we’ve shared
Both bright and sunny days.
There are memories of your kindness
And your friendly thoughtful ways

There are memories of all those notes,
we would write back and forth,
When we would just get together,
And talk of this or that

And when I recall these memories
As I go along life’s way,
I find they grow more precious still
With every passing day

No one will ever replace you And my heart will only for you Everything will come to an end But my Love for you will never end

It’s a Matter of Sacrifice

milanelle — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 18:42:57 +0000

so let me start for the very beginning!

wayback 2003, in my sophomore year! i met this man, named igme, well, we came from just one circle of friends. at first we are just friends because as i know, he was courting our friend, and then, they become lovers. though i know that i was really the one whom he wants to court, but he was afraid that ill be rejecting him.

i was in a realtionship also that time, but unexpectedly, i broke up with my bf and he did as well, but we never intended to do it both.

JANUARY 17, 2004

we are invited to attend our classmate’s birhday. so we’re there and our friends also. we talked about non-sense things, laughed together and i get him a food for him to eat of course! it’s a start. night comes, we went home, but before i ride on a jeepney, he gave me something, it’s a flower! (a flower from a pumpkin) funny it is! night came, we talked over the phone! and boom! he had my yes! yeah, that same day and night, he became my bf!!

after a month, we celebrated our first month together, i went to hhis house with our friends, unfortunately some gossipers told my dad that i was with a guy, because she saw me, and she immediately reported it to my dad! that same month, i will be celebrating my 15th birthday! i was really young then!

and so, when i got home, my mom and dad, were both angry! super mad as if i did too much wrong decision in my life ever! they thought that i had sex with my bf. which i never and we never did and we never even try to do. he didn’t intended to do it to me. it was also the start of my burden in my life.my mom slapped my face, hold my hair as if she’s riding in a horse with my hair as her knot to hold on, she also hit me with his leather belt, she repeated it all over, again and again, until my whole body can’t feel the pain every time she hits me. and my dad, well, he did what my mom did to me, and too worst! he grabbed his gun and point it in my forehead, i thought he’s gonna push the trigger, i wish he just did! but he didn’t.

after that horrible day in my life, i was isolated. i didnt go to school, i am not allowed to use my cellphone, telephone and never been allowed to go outside the house. i think of killing myself that day.

until i realized how much i love him, its the start of sacrificing my life for him. i started writing letters for him in the middle of the midnyt, and i gave it to my cousin which is both our classmate, through that, they knew what had happened to me.

2004 – 2005

another school year had passed, i was allowed to go to school and we celebrated our 1st year anniversary but with a limited time. those days were also the start of my rebellion through my parents. i learned to cut my classes, o lie even more, to let my studies left apart and so on. so month of the march came, i am never allowed to go to school. i love him so much but im so young that i can’t do anything to fight for him, i can’t be with him, until i just wanna end up dying! those days, were the saddest and hardest part of my life as a teenager and as a human! my friends are also not allowed to be with me, i felt like i was with nobody. i feel like as if im a prisoner with a biggest and unforgivable sin ever! is loving a sin?

AUGUST 04 2005

it was his birthday, i bought him a cake, at this time i wasnt allowed to go to school because they saw me and him, together juz recently cut out class, so they told me that im never gonna study. until the night of this day comes, we have a pharmacy that time, i used to be the cashier of it, but my mom this day went home, and she got mad and very angry, she knew that i went to see him in a few minutes which i am never allowed to do. she told me to go home, then the electricity wire is waiting for me.. she hitted me, everywhere that she can hit me! my face, my wholebody, everywhere! i wanna die this time, i want to get a knife and just kill myself so she wont hit me anymore, but i never did, nor i didnt try to do it.

instead, i called him, they didnt knew that i bought a new phone, to keep on touch with him, to call him everytime i missed him. and so, that night, i wrote a letter, for my mom and dad, telling that i am going somewhere, this is the only way that i think could make me free, elope with him! i made up my mind as quick as i told him yes! when we became lovers. midnyt came, i prepared my things, a pair of clothes, undies and just a P60.00 in my wallet. where am i supposed to go with that amount of money,. but still i go on, iwent to their house at exactly 4:05 in the morning! he was shocked, and her mom as well. i want to be with him always, and thats the only answer i think can made us be together.

but we never succeeded, i was caught by my relatives and dad, he was teary eyed that time, he held me in his arms as if he dont wants to lose me, i feel so ashamed of what i did, it happened because i didnt listened to igme, and so thats why i got caught.we went home, they talked to me. and i go to school again after a day. i had the chance to see him everyday, but still my parents, family doesnt want him.

we celebrated our 5 years and 4 months anniversary last May. but i ended up everything with him. why? because things getting cold between the two of us! we often fight for some non sense things and so i decided to end it, even though it hurts really! but honestly, it wasn’t really the reason why i broke up with him, and why i have to just forget the sacrifices we had and faced together, well it’s because, my mom and dad, doesn’t and wouldn’t like him. they hated him as if he’s a bad person. i never told him that because i dont want to hurt his feelings, i just want him to think that i gave up on him, which i didnt. in my heart, he’s always be the person that i am dreaming to be with for the rest of my life.

but for now, i want to finished first my studies, and give my parents a chance to be proud of me again. and when i finally finished my responsibilities as a student, as a daughter and as a sister to my siblings, i will go back to him and make things all possible, whether my parents like it or not.

and now, i am currently a third year college student, one year to go, and I’ll have my diploma, i can stay with him after i have helped my family. Together we will build our very own dream life! if we are meant to be!

i always told him that “if we are meant to be in this life, one day in God’s will, he will permit us to be together, forever.”

(thank you very much for reading my story, it’s actually a summary of it, coz i know i will bore you if i make it as detail as it is.. thank you so much! may we all find our very own love of our life! good luck to all of us! GOD BLESS)

-MILANELLE

The One

Procrastinate — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 08:32:40 +0000

Well, this is a story about how I met “The One”. I met him on a chat site. I’ve never thought much of him since we didn’t really have much things in common “online”. As a year past, he stopped coming online but then one day he came back out of know where. We talked found each others interests gradually I added him to msn. He lives two hours plane ride away from me.

As weeks went past, we got to know more and more of each other. For about three months. He’s currently 18 years old studying in Uni. Even though we didn’t know what we do outside of internet life he is very sweet. He doesn’t want me, going off with people such as hanging with my mates. He always gets so jealous when that happens. He’s insecure.

I don’t blame him, I do a lot of crap but I never try to do anything to hurt him. I like him to bits. My heart aches so much, that’s how much I like him. Now we’re only being ‘friends’ but I will be seeing him sometime soon in the next 5-6 weeks. Depends if I have time to go down to see him. He’s a virgin, he doesn’t want to lose it to anyone. He wants to give it to someone special.

To be continued….