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Sue was very worried at first, emailing
him, calling and leaving messages at work. The number he had given her
for his home was no longer in service, which confused her. From the
States, she contacted the local police in Australia and convinced them
to knock on his door to ascertain he was ok. He was, but he'd changed
his number. She finally tracked down his new number and called but it
wasn't until after he began hanging up on her phone calls, she guessed
what was happening and her worry turned to anger. The email below was
sent to me by Sue about a month after this had happened.
Ed
Hi there
So good to hear from you. Funny you'd write
when you have. I got a letter from Barry yesterday, not e-mail, snail
mail. But it only took a week to get here. I had sent a note to his wife
along with a couple of posts that he had sent to me to prove he was
having an affair with me. Maybe I shouldn't have done it, but after his
return to work I called a couple of times. He kept hanging up on me,
saying, "I don't wish to speak to you". This was long before I sent
anything. I couldn't understand this. What had happened, why had he not
been in touch, etc.....I guess I called him back so much that he finally
decided to listen to me, to what I had to say. Didn't make any
difference, I still did not get an explanation for his actions. As I
said, I called a couple of times prior to Christmas, nothing, he just
wouldn't talk. I don't even know if he listened much or just set the
phone down and let me blabber away. But I did hear him clearing his
throat at times, so I know he was listening for some of it. I told him I
had the right to know what was going on, why he had done this. Shit,
after 2 years 8 months I think I have a right to know what happened.
January 3rd I wrote him a long post, about 4
pages to try and get to him a little more. Nothing. No response. I
called him again. I told him then as I had before Christmas that I
wanted my personal things back and all the pic's I had sent him prior to
us meeting. They are ones I can not replace. When he wouldn't talk to me
yet again, he only hung up on me a couple of times this time and then
listened to me, I decided that he didn't deserve to have this end with
no one being the wiser but him, so I sent his wife the letter the
following day. She did receive it and did read it. It has created much
stress, according to his letter, too bad as I thought to myself. He
deserved it! I have never been that vengeful towards anyone, it's his
methods and lack of being a human being with some decency.
I then wrote him another post the second week of January telling him in
one of the paragraphs that I would haunt him the rest of his days till I
got back what was mine, that he will never know where or when I may just
appear down there. That if it took the rest of my life (sort of thing)
I'd get there somehow. I then told him that with what he has done to me,
the other women he's had affairs with and to his family that maybe it
would be best for all concerned if he weren't around anymore. And no, I
didn't mean it in that way at all. After I sent it and re read it I
thought it sounded a bit harsh, but I meant that maybe he should go off
somewhere and be alone to think and stew in his thoughts of his life and
what havoc he's created.
Anyway, there was a lot more in the note, but that particular paragraph
he took as me threatening him, I guess between me saying I'd haunt him
for the rest of his days, along with the....he shouldn't be around
anymore. He did respond to that post. Told me he had posted me a letter
the previous Saturday. This was last Tuesday, your Tuesday that is. And
that he had been in touch with the local federal police in view of the
fourth paragraph in my e-mail. That the fed's thought that my threat may
contravene some of your criminal codes there. That all e-mails would be
monitored, not to send him anything more and that the police there would
be in touch with the police here should there be future breaches.
Of course I laughed and told him in my response that he must be joking.
As I told him, do what you want, I don't care. As I told him, you have
far more to lose in this than I do and the big difference is, I have
enough material to sink him for the rest of his life, so what are the
police here going to do to me. I've clearly stated in all my posts that
I want my things back and then I will leave him alone, or that I'd haunt
him, keep writing to him, calling him off and on till he got the message
and sent the stuff back. How much more clear can I be. Good question.
He did say in that post that he would locate the material requested and
return it as soon as possible. I told him good, because he would not get
his rowing shirt back until I did get my things. His rowing shirt is so
very important to him, according to him back a long time ago. That it
was suppose to go to his eldest daughter Regan. So, I pulled another
"woman scorned" and told him that for every week I did not have my
things returned I would rip part of it, so that he'd better get my
things back to me as fast as he could before the shirt wouldn't be worth
saving. I told him, I would start this coming Monday, which was
yesterday and every other Monday after that, so he'd better send the
stuff back courier in order to minimize the damage to his shirt. Monday
has passed as I said and nothing. I haven't put any tears in it yet and
will avoid it for a little longer, but I won't avoid it forever.
His letter that I received yesterday basically told me that I didn't
mean anything to him, that his wife now knows about his past and present
with all his affairs. He even went as far to tell me that I was the
sixth of seven, that he had had an affair while involved with me. What a
bastard! He then tells me that all the things he told me about his wife
were either lies or greatly exaggerated and that I would never have
replaced the loving, caring, nurturing mother of his children, that they
have heritage and history together and want to add to it. What a lot of
garbage.
I'm in the middle of doing a response to his letter. I'm trying not to
be nasty in it but it's pretty hard. No one has the right to treat me
this way and boy, I've never felt this angry, mad and wanting so much to
hurt him to the depths he's never known.
He then tells me at the end of this note that his wife has undertaken
not to open anything else I may decide to send, that she will return it
unopened. That if I try to contact him again he will inform the
authorities there and they will get in touch with the authorities here
to me leave him alone. Again, as I said in a previous post to
him.....don't make me laugh. Then he says that he will spend the rest of
his days making his relationship with his wife work along with his five
beautiful children. Bull, once a cheater always a cheater. A leopard
never changes it's spots. He may not cheat on her for a while, but he
will again. What a piece of dirt he is!
I just don't know what the hell happened, what changed him overnight,
literally overnight. As I said, all was fine, or so it seemed to me the
night prior to him going on sick leave for the six weeks. We spoke, we
laughed and we both said we loved each other, then the next day he was
out of my life. I know I have to forget, just get on with my life, I
know, but how does one do this when you've been hurt so deeply. When you
don't know what happened or why. I'm now wondering if his wife found out
about the other woman before she found out about me and if that is why
he ended up off sick for that time prior to Christmas. Guess I'll never
truly know what the hell is going on. I need the closure, but I guess
I'll never get it. You just have no idea how much I would love the
opportunity to be able to see him face to face and smack his face so
hard it would send him reeling. He is the most despicable human being
I've ever known in my life.
I refuse to believe he didn't love me and want me. I have all kinds of
phone messages from him saying things he never had to say, since I
wasn't home, letters, cards, e-mails etc.....And yet he says in his
letter that he said and did all the things as a means to his end and
that I should be able to figure out why. If that was the case I could
see it happening for maybe a year, not 2 years 8 months. No one spends
money, time, that amount of time with someone they don't care about or
love, no way. He also told me in this letter that as I know he tried to
get rid of me many times, but he couldn't. What a
lot of bull shit. It was me that ended it with him a few times and him
as well as me that got things back on track again. I ended things with
him before the end of April last year, as I mentioned, because he
decided that he couldn't leave his children. I didn't speak to him for
two weeks, then I called him to thank him for a money order he sent me
to cover an ambulance bill I got because I had done a silly thing back a
couple of months earlier, I had been drinking and took some pills and
told him I didn't care if I lived or died, that I'm so unhappy and I
want to be with him.
He called the police here and they got the
ambulance here. I couldn't afford the bill and told him since he called
that I wanted him to pay the bill, that was when I was ending things in
April. I was going to pay it myself, in time, but thought why the hell
should I when he was doing this to me. He did send the money order and
rather than send an e-mail, which I figured he'd respond to and I didn't
want back and forth e-mails to start again, I called him to thank him. I
was pleasant on the phone, asked how he was doing, he sounded so upset
and down. Then I said to him, well, you wouldn't be feeling this way if
you had some guts and loved me enough. It's you not me and that's why I
had to end it. I can't wait the rest of my life for you and I won't. I
told him I missed him too but that that doesn't solve the problem.
He sent me a post telling me how much he missed me and still loved me.
That he was still looking around at houses but wasn't game to do
anything about it unless he knew I still wanted him and loved
him....blah blah blah. Poured out his heart, what a joke that is, heart,
what heart! So I let him back in my life again. Stupid, stupid stupid!
Love at my end sure was deaf, dumb and totally blind! I believed him,
believed in him and then he turns around and does this to me. He just
wasn't finished with me yet, he wanted to make sure he could hurt me in
a way he knew would last for a long time. And telling me he had an
affair with another woman while he supposedly was so much in love with
me, that he could never do anything like that to me because he loved me
more than he'd ever loved anyone else in his life! I fell for all this,
hook line and sinker. Guess I just wanted to believe that someone could
love me that much.
Anyway, sorry I've gone on so much here. Guess your sorry too. It's a
novel instead of a short story. Hope you don't fall asleep reading it. I
just don't know what to do now, how to go on and try to have belief in
myself, how to regain my self esteem again and how I'll ever be able to
trust another man. This is the second man that has just ended things
without me knowing why and I don't understand it. The last one was when
I was 30, 10 years ago and until Barry I hadn't been involved with
anyone because I didn't want to be hurt like that again. And here Barry
does the same thing to me. He knew how fragile I was when it came to
relationships and my fear of getting involved because of what the last
guy did to me. He told me he would never hurt me like that, that I could
trust him. Right! My own fault. Guess I should listen to myself more
than I do. But he seemed so nice and we ended up having so much in
common, more than I thought we would considering our backgrounds. He is
well educated, I'm not. He's a writer and has a good job in Government.
He wasn't keeping up his end for quite some time, prior to him even
knowing or meeting me. So they demoted him on a six month trial period.
That happened a couple of weeks ago. I found out when I tried to reach
him and called the main switchboard to find out his new number. Those at
his work just told me that he was in a different department now, but
didn't give me the number so I had to go about it another way. It was
the woman on the switchboard that told me he had been put there on a
trial period for six months. Interesting that she would reveal that type
of information to someone she doesn't even know. I already knew about
the possible demotion prior to him going on sick leave. He had been told
about it back in September. That if he didn't pick up his socks in a
short period of time he was going to be put down there. I just laughed
and told him he deserved it. Cruel yes, but what's he been to me. What
goes around comes around and whatever he gets as payment for all this he
will have deserved.
Ok, I'm going to shut up now. I could go on forever about this. Yes, I
know, you thought I already had... If you read all of this, thank you!
Take good care, I'm always so happy
to know of others good luck in finding the right love. Hang on to it,
it's something that has eluded me all my life. Being 40 now I don't hold
out too much hope. I really thought Barry was the one. Shows you what
thought did.
"Sue"
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