Crazy? Maybe. But reality, nonetheless.

Let me tell you the story. I was on AOL Instant Messenger one night and this guy contacted me. I usually don't respond unless what the person typed in is interesting. I didn't find him interesting so I didn't respond. After about the fourth time of him contacting me, I asked him why he was being so persistent. We chatted for awhile and I learned he was a cop in Texas. I am from Ontario, Canada. I knew right away that he was a very intelligent 24 year old man and that I wanted to get to know him better. We added each other to our buddy lists and started talking every day and night for hours on end.

This went on for about 2 weeks when we really started getting serious. I knew I loved him before he told me that he loved me. I knew that he was "the one" even before he told me that he wanted to spend his life with me. (I'm chatting with him right now on AOL and I will tell you what just happened in a sec here.) 

Before long, we were calling each other girlfriend and boyfriend to our online friends. But I am keeping him from my family and "real" friends for now and I will tell you the reason. I am currently engaged to and living with another man. There's more...I am 4 months pregnant with his child. I am not in love with him, never was. I am in love with Keith. I have to tell the man I am with now about it sooner or later. I am choosing later so I will have an update before too long on how that went.

As of now, Keith and I plan to meet in June of this year. He is flying to Toronto and we are meeting there when I pick him up from the airport. I have an excuse to get away for a couple weeks as my father lives in Toronto. So, right now, Keith and I are starting our future while I am ending the past.

On to what just happened. I wrote an email to Keith about a half hour ago when he was on his way to work. I laid it all out on the line...telling him that I could never move to Texas because I couldn't take this unborn child away from his father or my mother, also. Telling him that no matter what, Kent was always going to be in my life because he is the biological father. I told him that there was a lot to get through and a lot for him to have to deal with and to take all this into consideration. I told him I would await his response. I knew he would be back online when he got settled in the cruiser and sure enough, about ten minutes after I sent the email, he came online. I told him to go read his mail. He was silent for about 5 minutes and then he typed me something.....these three words...."Count me in." As soon as I saw that, I just lost it. I started bawling and had to tell him to give me a sec. I couldn't see the screen, my tears were so heavy. I realized then just how terrified I was of losing him. I am still wiping tears away. We are going to make this happen, we are going to make this work. Our future is just beginning and I can't wait until we are together.

Thanks for allowing me to print my story and I will keep you all updated on the outcome.

"Jodi"