But after a couple of months we were surely in love any everyone else saw it too. It was good for a while but to make a complicated story simple things turned bad, I mean horrible. We didn't talk, and people would tell me about his being with other girls but I never saw it and was too busy to deal with it accordingly.To sum it up, when it was all over I felt so hurt. I know you've heard that before, but I mean I felt that no one could understand my hurt or my situation.

So needless to say after that relationship when I met someone months later I was all TOO sceptical. He was literally one of the nicest males I had ever met. He was what I always asked of people but never got. He seemed all too perfect. He was honest, sincere, we had too much in common, and he was a "good boy". 

I have never been the type of girl to cry aimlessly over some boy, man whatever. I have been strong and have a strong desire to focus on what's important- which to me is school. When I started falling for him I guess my heart was hardened so I didn't want to be too quick to respond. Like last time- when I had been so naive. So we talked for months, things were so nice. He said the sweetest things and I guess I waited to hear about his many girls but never did. There was no stress, no drama. But in my attempt to be so unconcerned with being with him I hurt myself. We still talked but when i was ready to change the seriousness of our relationship, he told me we should be friends. He told me that he was with someone. I waited for the day where I could just tell him how much he meant to me but I never could. Every time I would see him with a girl it tore me up inside and everyday I said that I would tell him because it wasn't as bad as it seemed and I'd heard too many times how if you don't tell someone how you feel about them that you will regret it. Well we are still apart to this day and honestly i did regret it, not so much because I didn't tell him but because I let one lowdown person permit me from my happiness. 

This isn't meant to be a sad story although the truth is it did hurt. I've gained the key back to my heart and someone really special will come take it one day. No matter how much you love someone, never give anyone the power to consume you. There is always tomorrow and your heart is yours to be with someone deserving of you. This is really for my sisters, open up your eyes, there is always hope. As Boyz to Men say, "Girl, don't let real love pass you by."

"eLove"