We planned for me to drive to Pittsburgh three weeks before it actually happened. As the time drew near, I could sense my mysterious man withdrawing from me and hesitating whenever I tried to discuss our plans. Down to the wire, the evening before I was to leave, I very forwardly asked him if it was still on. I was shocked and hurt by his response, although it was mostly indirect and vague. His avoiding a straight answer and insistence on "getting back to me" was like a knife through my heart. How could this be? All these feelings, all these plans, and he was truly willing to give it all up at the last minute. As I was pacing and waiting for him to return my call, I became very comfortable with the idea of going whether he wanted to meet me or not.

Well, I never gave this indecisive man a chance to call me back. I was on the Internet making my own plans and my own hotel reservations when I saw his name appear on my buddy list. At this point, being very comfortable with what I was about to do, I sent him the details of my room reservation and informed him that I was really okay with him not wanting to meet me if that were the case. I was going to make this trip, he would have the opportunity to meet if he chose too, and if not, I was completely comfortable with that. I NEEDED this trip! Although I believe he was a little shocked at first, he gracefully complied and said he would come meet me the following evening when he got out of work. After he agreed, I began to see the excitement in his face (on cam) and I sensed the same in his voice (in messages). 

So, nearly 24 hours after our final goodbyes the evening before, I arrived to my hotel just moments away from the man I had been dreaming of for what seemed like forever. I spoke with "Mr. Mystery" several times on the phone as I paced in anticipation of his shift ending. As his arrival time came closer, the phone rang. It was him! He was only minutes away from me. It was really going to happen! I was finally going to meet the man I had been holding so close to my heart in the most bizarre ways. 

I anxiously awaited his headlights at the sliding glass door of my hotel room. There they were! As my heart sank, my palms began to sweat and my eyes became more inquisitive with every second, I got my first glimpse of him. As he parked his car and opened he door I felt like I could not get to him fast enough. It was almost exactly as I pictured as I reached up for him and he lifted me off of my feet as he held me. It was really happening. I felt myself giving him a kiss without any hesitation whatsoever. It was the beginning. The REAL beginning of something that had been happening for some time. It was that moment that I realized that all of the feelings that I had developed weren't silly at all. In fact, they were very real. 

Throughout the night, that consisted of eight very short hours together, we talked, laughed, touched, kissed, and danced. Everything seemed so unnaturally natural that I can barely even remember our first REAL kiss. I kissed this man like I had kissed him my whole life. It felt all to good to finally be next to the person that was invading all of my dreams and sporadically changing all of my vital signs. This was him! The one that kept me waiting all of those nights on line just so I could get a glimpse of him and hear even just a few of his sweet words. This was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. 

As the time became closer for him to leave, I could feel myself desperately missing him already. As we looked into each other's eyes, we both became obsessively preoccupied with when would see each other again. Such a bittersweet moment saying goodbye to the person that you have waited so long to meet. And then it happened. I despondently watched him drive away wondering when I would ever have the chance to feel this way again. 

We have spent time together online since our meeting, and we have both found it very difficult. It's difficult to be so far away when your heart is so close. This man still continues to plague most of my waking and sleeping moments and it panics me to think that it may never change. We will meet again. We are already planning the details of my next trip to hold this man as close to my body as he feels in my heart. It will surly be another day in heaven for us, and it can never come soon enough. For anyone interested, our website is here.

"Midnite"

Looking for Part One? It's here.