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There I started talking to this guy, Steve.
We would meet there off and on, and e-mailed each other on a regular
basis.
We exchanged pictures, I found him very
attractive, but never thought of having an "Internet Romance." So a year
or so went by, with us talking by e-mail and a chat program very often.
One summer, him and I talked ALL the time. Not a day went by that we
didn't talk.
He is so amazing. He
is so sweet, kind, understanding, I can really talk to him. That summer
I realized how much I really liked him. I didn't just like him a little,
I was like totally in love with him. (I was 16 at the time.) One day, I
finally got the courage to tell him how I felt. He said that he had
liked me too, but he thought I didn't like him. I guess I never picked
up on his signs.
Then...he told me he just started dating
this girl. I was totally crushed. I cried and cried. But him and I still
talked. That whole time he was with her, my feelings were still VERY
strong for him. I moved on though, dated other guys, although he was the
one I thought of the entire time. He and this girl eventually broke up.
I can't say I was upset, because I wasn't. Her and I are VERY good
friends now though. Anyways, there was a time when Steve and I didn't
talk for a while. I figured he was too busy. You have to understand how
close we were. He told me he has never met anyone like me, he could
picture himself being with me, and that he thinks he could spend the
rest of his life with me. I don't think I was ever so happy.
Well months of awkwardness went by. Not
talking, fighting over nothing. I really missed him. We just recently
started talking again, and things are great. He told me he loves me (we
always told each other that), and in more than a "just friends" way. I
agreed, because I had always felt that way. Him and I have never met, he
is about 6 hours away.
I can honestly say I don't think this is
just some Internet thing. I have had relationships, and I cannot get
over Steve. I've never felt this way about ANYONE in my life. He says
the same thing. I want to be with him more than anything in this world.
Him and I talk about meeting...I know if
we do, its going to be hard, cause I know I will want to be with him. It
will be SO hard to leave. I know one day very soon we will meet though.
I am looking forward to that day SO much. I wish I could say my
"Internet Romance" with Steve was like one of other readers, but I
cannot until we meet.
"Angel"
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