My husband (yes I'm married, far from happily) bought an online game, a game 
I thought was really stupid, I even told him to put it back, it's a good 
thing he didn't listen. I watched him play for a few months and was 
interested in chatting myself. So I did, after being a part of this game 
for almost a year, I met some awesome friends. I guess you could say I was 
looking for something and I found it. I also put up with losers hitting on 
the sexy character I had picked for myself, but something made me stay.

Everyone thought we were so cute how we sit in the corner of the most 
popular room. That's how we started chatting, he always wanted to sit in MY 
corner, so it started play fighting and I always made fun of his little 
typos. Before I knew it he was buying me roses from the giftshop of the 
game, by the time we left the game I had over 1200 roses, all from him. It 
sounds really silly but they meant so much to me, it was the most he 
could've given me, at the time.

After the first few months we decided to exchange pictures. He was so 
adorable, and so very sexy, we were both very pleased. Things always got 
better and neither of us had to try. A bunch of our friends wanted to 
try voice chat, so we joined in. Oh my god his voice was so soothing to me. 

I couldn't get enough of it. Our visits to the game diminished and so did 
the time we spent with our friends. I was so wrapped up in his love I 
couldn't concentrate on anything else.

I ordered a Cartouche, its a pendant that's supposed to have your name on 
one side in english and your name in Egyptian on the other, well I ordered 
mine special and got his name on the other side in Egyptian (so no one would 
know what it said) I broke it in half and sent him half of it. We wear 
these close to our hearts, only we know what it means.

We still to this day talk about the "boom" we feel when we're together. 
It's the best feeling anyone could have. There was only one down side to 
all of this, I got so scared, I mean, I am married, and so is he. I thought 
it would be for the best if we didn't chat anymore, I was getting too 
attached. I tried leaving him 3 times and I felt so bad, I couldn't go 
through with it. We were only apart for 24 hours at a time and it seemed 
like a lifetime. I didn't eat, I couldn't sleep, I walked around like a 
zombie, during those times I didn't even turn the computer on. I couldn't 
stand being online without him. I finally got up enough guts to see if he 
had tried contacting me and he did, every time. He was feeling just as bad 
as I was, if not worse. I have never in my life felt so empty and alone as 
I did when we were apart.

I have decided not to back-pedal anymore, because I know it won't work. We 
have something so great and I would never ever trade that for anything. He 
is my best friend, my soul mate, my lover (a form of cybering I guess, on 
voice, hands free). Smile.

We are secret lovers, btw, that's one of our songs. We have talked about 
meeting, but we know what will happen. The sexual attraction is so great, 
we wouldn't be able to contain ourselves. We talk a lot about it, how that 
first hug will be so intense, just thinking about it now brings tears to 
my eyes. Even though life has dealt us sucky decks, I believe we will be 
together for real one day, if there is a god and true love exists, we will be. 

We have our real lives for now and it's not going to change in the near future, 
but I always have hope. We aren't hurting anyone, being together online we 
are much happier, real lives included. We not only want each other, we need 
each other and that's never going to change. We have been together a year 
now and every day that passes, we are closer, and more in love.

To everyone that is alone in this world, don't give up, you too can find 
your soul mate. Thank you for letting me share. :)

"Ally"