Mars & Deborah 3: As
Deborah went to the departure hall to fly out of Adelaide I knew that
the next few months were going to drag on slowly and that I would miss
her like crazy. I just didnt want her to go but that was the reality of
the situation. When she got back...
She's From: ? He's From: ?
I had gone on 3 internet dates (in about
a 2 year period). I decided to sign up for a temporary trial offer at Match.com.
I sent a couple of e-mails. Funny thing is 4
guys responded, liked my pic, I would do the here e-mail, there e-mail
thing with them but nothing really captivated me.......did I mention all
but one guy e-mailed (had to be my favourite of the group). Well guess
what???... he finally did...we started e-mailing on the 24th of Sept
...did the instant messenger that night for 4 hours.....we e-mailed on
Monday, I dislike typing on this thing so I gave him my cell #....
On Sept 26th, he called ...we started at 10:00p.m and didn't put down
the phone until 5:30 the next morning...7 1/2 hours!
We talked about everything and anything. He
even walked outside and looked up to the sky and named a star after me;
he said no matter what happened every time he looked up and saw that
bright star he would remember me. There were even times that there was
complete silence but it was the most peaceful, spiritual, relaxing
moment I think either of us had experienced. It was as if we had become
one over miles and miles of distance.
Neither of us can explain it. We just know that we had this amazing
spiritual connection...like the type when there is no one else in the
world but just the two of you. Where you can fall back millions of feet
and that person will be there to catch you. Fast Forward through the
week, the prior scene reoccurs numerous times...We live 260 miles away,
he happened to be coming down close to my area for a business meeting
and we decided to meet this past weekend...We planned on meeting in a
hotel...about 70 miles from my house (my friend and I took the trip
together) and he met us there......We met exactly 96 hours after our
first phone conversation...
At first it was awkward but after an hour I went back to being my full
of personality self. We went to a dance club and had an unbelievable
time. We went back to the hotel. He ended up hanging out with my friend
and I for awhile...then I went back to his room with him....I've never
been the type to sleep with someone on a first date but I felt like we
had known each other for years; almost as if we had made love somewhere
else; a long time ago; kind of like two powers were separated sometime
ago and reunited...
I have never made love with anyone like I did on Saturday night...there
were these amazing words that were heard but never spoken....okay fast
forward again to Sunday.....(I am thinking this whole time that I have
finally found someone on the internet that I am actually going to have a
meaningful relationship with). We wake up together after snuggling the
whole night ..I go back to my room. We all get dressed and go to
lunch.....fast forward to lunch at the restaurant. We have what I
thought was normal lunch conversation on 3 hours sleep. We drive back to
the hotel (all 3 of us). He asks me if I will walk him to his car. I
do....He kisses me passionately ; tells me we knew this was going to
happen and that he would call me when he got home...(I drive home
thinking how great it felt to be somewhat in love and how wonderful
this whole experience had been so far).
I get home 3 hours later and the hours pass. It's midnight and I still
haven't heard from him....he should have been home by now.....I start
questioning the whole weekend in my mind thinking what could possibly be
wrong and at the same time I am wondering if he had been in a car
accident or something. Well I kept calling all his #'s and no
answer....morning came and with it the realization that maybe he didn't
like me as much as I liked him.....My friend and I analysed everything
we possibly could and she herself (3rd party view) said she thought he
was totally into me....
Well come to find out this morning (I asked my friend to call him at his
office) he said I was great but we didn't have anything in common. My
heart has shattered into 30 millions pieces and even as I am typing this
tonight the tears still sting at my eyes. I received an e-mail from him
apologising for not calling but saying just what he had told my friend
previously this morning. He typed in the e-mail that he would never be
able to describe the amazing bond that we had through those
conversations but we had nothing in common in person...I actually
thought we did...but oh well....
I actually have an e-mail that he sent me (on Thurs), that I would love
to share. It totally describes out emotions through the past week...he
even told me we had shared some type of love......I guess I am the fool
for falling so fast so hard...I haven't mentioned my age but I am 25
(attractive but very tired of the whole club/bar scene). I actually
believed that he was the one...we talked about marriage and having
kids...it's like all of this past week is such a whirlwind to me right
Well, I remembered your site and thought about e-mailing my story. It
doesn't matter if you put this on the site or not...it's actually been
kind of therapeutic in it's own way to type all this... You know
something , even though my heart is hurting right now (and I have
probably lost about 10lbs today in water weight from my tears) I don't
regret anything about the past week.
The feeling and emotion I shared with this
person was such a unique, tender and beautiful thing that I will never
forget him nor the experience as long as I live.....I would even do it
all over again....
Thanks again for listening to my story, I appreciate it.