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Besides, I am only 18 and she's 23. But
she taught me love, " love isn't something money can buy, it is
something you feel, be in chatting on phone for an hour or
just messaging, you will be happy enough, that's what is love.
I was so shock, shock with happiness. I thought that god gave me a great
chance, to prove my love, for someone else. We then started calling each
other "baobei" in the sense, dearest. It was my holiday then, so I am
having loads of free time. And she just resigned due to the manager
stuffs. We were having loads of fun.
We agreed to meet out on Thursday which is June 29, the day where it is
the
beginning of happiness and sadness. We went to the movies for silent
hill, a
horrific movie of fiction. It was silent for the first few hours, but I
intend to grab her hands. We hold hands and I felt her, her pair of warm
hands.
In the movies, we held hands; she laid her head on my shoulder. But I
can
see from her eyes, she's under loads of stress, with lots of problems. I
don't know why, but I just can feel it. I had this very ridiculous
thinking,
of staying by her side, and heal her wounds.
We went to K-box for singing as planned. I don't really know how to
sing,
but I am willing to comprehend her, her voice was really great. She had
a
dream of being a singer, and I will support her. The first, to support
her.
After an hour or so, we kissed. Stuff really happens too fast, but I
felt her warmth.
Indeed stuff happens too fast, we went on to Fragrance Hotel. We kiss on
the
bed, as well as we made love. I asked her why she wanted to made love to
me,
she replied, it is because she love me so dearly, she want me too feel
her love, feel sexually high. After all, I couldn't understand. But I
trust her, she's not that easy type of women, she's just a girl, wanting
to find her true love, she's just a girl, whom god hasn't given his love
to her.
HER STORY.
She's a poor little girl, who hasn't as the luck as most of us could,
she did not have a good family, a good bring up. In order to avoid
staying at her ( divorce ) mother house, she choose to stay at her
boyfriend house, a guy whom she don't love now, a guy who dotes on her a
lot, but thinking his actions and care towards her could tied her up.
She hasn't got any choices, but to stay with her boyfriend, I blame
myself for not having the status, the finance, to help her. All I could
do was to stand by her, be there for
her, and listen to her.
THINGS CHANGED
Days were sweet, we missed each other so crazy, so dearly. But it was
the
starting of a twist.
She was pregnant. It was her current boyfriend child. I broke down. It
was my worst day ever. She told me this on July 1st, Saturday. I really
wish I could cry. But I knew I had to stand strong, so she won't worry
about me. I knew something would happen, because her voice was
exceptionally strange that day. She told me to forget her, but I knew I
couldn't. I told her it is impossible for me to forget you. She said
that she isn't worth for me, worth my love.
It was her 4th abortion if she's going to
abort the child this time, I broke down and cried in front of my
friends, my best friends. But they couldn't do anything, but to pat on
my shoulder, without saying anything, just silent, because they knew
they couldn't do anything, till I cool down. I didn't let her know how I
felt, I stayed strong in front of her. So that she can lean her head, on
me. So that she could depend well on me. I couldn't sleep that night, I
stayed awake, but I knew I had to rest, because it might be our final
meeting on Sunday, July 2nd.
OUR LOVE.
We met at the place we made our love promises to god, Fragrance hotel.
Room
416, I could remember so clearly. She open up the door, I could felt her
stress and sadness straight away. My heart melted, but I had to stay
strong.
She wanted me to give up on her, so she talked to me in a very strict
manner, hoping I could get angry, but I couldn't. I couldn't bring
myself.
I told her what I felt, deep inside my heart.
MY WORDS TO HER.
Dearest, it isn't your fault, it's just that god didn't treat you well
enough, it is not your fault, it is just that you are purely unlucky. If
anyone were to be sad, it would be me. My heart hurts more then anyone
else would. I would love you more then anyone else would. She remained
silent but I knew she was listening.
I didn't remind her of her problems, because I knew I can't.
"If you were to find a boyfriend whom both of you really loves each
other, I
would tell him, her secret ten commandments.
1st, she don't like guys who hunch their backs, so remember to stand
straight.
2nd, remember to hold her hands in the cinema real firm so that she
feels
very secure.
3rd, remember to keep her active instead of just remaining silent, she
might
feel bored.
4th, she love hugs and kisses, remember not to forget about that.
5th, she have little self confidence, so do encourage her more often in
all
areas, especially singing. Do encourage her that anything is possible.
6th, she always think about others first instead of sparing a thought
for
herself first. So remember to spare a thought for her at all times.
7th, she hates the sun, so avoid going to places with sun if possible.
8th, do not force her to do what she don't like because she will get
real
fed up.
9th, do sleep early, because she will wait for you to reach home or
sleep
first, before she goes to sleep.
10th, love her with all your heart, so that she can feel what is
happiness,
and the word, forever. Remain strong at all times, because you never
know
when she might need you".
THE LAST FEW HOURS OF LOVE.
Upon hearing this, she hugged me. We kissed. And. we made love. She said
she
wanted me to have her, just for today and it might be the last choice.
After today, I guess its in gods hands of what her decision will be,
abort the child, or give birth to the child.
She's a girl of a really soft heart, I really wished I could be by her
side, just to take care of her. We hugged for a longed time until call
from her mother arrives.
She had to go, and never head back. I knew I won't be able to see her
for a long time from now. We ended off with a kiss.
During this time while waiting for her to get things settle down, I
filled myself with busy work and studies, trying real hard hoping that
maybe I could made a miracle out of myself.
Both of us misses each other, love each other, but only to find out in
the
end, we are not meant to be together. Our story ended on July 7th .
But, is that just the ending, or is it the beginning of another story.
Whatever it may be, I hope the god of love, would choose the best choice
for
me and her. My heart will always live within her, always be with her,
because, I am hers since the first time we talked.
Anything is possible, only if we trust, do not give up, because you
might not know that something great in your life might be coming up.
"Lim"
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