Well, I left for Michigan on the 13th of April, after many flight delays. On my connecting flight, I met 2 really great people who sat in my row. The older gentleman was meeting someone from the Internet too! =) There was a business woman sitting in between us who couldn't believe that people could fall in love over a computer. We laughed and talked the whole way to Michigan. I even exchanged email address with the woman. She wanted me to write her and give her updates on how we are doing. I haven't had the heart to write her and tell her that he dumped me 1.5 months ago.

But anyways they watched us meet when I got off the plane. I spotted Chris instantly and a big nervous grin came across my face. He had a red rose for me! One look in those eyes, and I was lost forever. He was so much cuter in person than I could ever imagine! In that instant I was in Michigan with my best friend from AOL for 3 years! We walked to the baggage claim, holding hands the whole way, I felt I was in my own little world. I was still very nervous at this time, and could barely look at him in the eye, he looked like an angel!

We got to his car. and I put my stuff in the back seat. When the door closed we hugged again, and I noticed our reflection in the car window. I was so happy at this moment in time! He leaned down to me whispered "I love you" and gave me a nice kiss! We drove back to his place. He got on his knees and asked me out! It was so romantic! Well I'll cut to the chase. We had a wonderful weekend. He took me to a nice restaurant, and we had so much fun!

The night before I left to come back home (I only stayed there from Thursday until Sunday) I was crying right before I fell asleep, he was in the other room on the couch, so he didn't know. I felt that something terribly wrong was going to happen. The next day we went to the airport, I didn't want to go home! We hugged one last time and I got on the plane. I was so depressed at this time! I got back to California and everything was good. 

A week passed, we got into little arguments....I didn't want him to get the wrong idea, maybe he did, but he took it as "I need to break up with her." 1.5 weeks after we started to go out, he broke up with me on the computer. I was devastated, because the first thing he told me was that he wasn't going to move to California. then he said we couldn't go out anymore. I was a mess! A few weeks later he told me that he's convinced that his first girlfriend is "the one" for him. I was devastated all over again.

I still have the rose he gave me. It's dried and in my room right now. I still have the saved conversations he sent me and the star he named after me with the description "our love is eternal as our star". I don't know what to think anymore. I felt I had lost the man of my dreams and my best friend. He still wants to be friends, but it will never be the same between us again!

I will always remember him and the good times we had together. Even if it was for a short moment in time. I'd do it all over again if i could. I was so happy! This past week at school, I've been seeing guys that look like him. I don't know what that means. I will always love him, and he'll always be apart of me. He still will be the man of my dreams. I feel like I can never love another again, and that is the worst feeling in the world!
Someday I'll get over him. I haven't talked to him on the phone since we broke up.

I don't want you all to feel sorry for me. I know that there is a reason for this happening, whether I want to believe it or not. Maybe it was for the best. Maybe there is someone else out there for me....it's only a matter of time....all I can do is wait.

"Karri"

Looking for Part One? It's here.