started talking and that night I stayed up for hours talking to this
guy. We continued to chat for the next two days. Well I got up to check
my e-mail and he sent me a card and a letter saying *this is quoted from
the e-mail he sent me "Hey sweetie, I just got done taking my final. I
think I did pretty good, but anyway I just wanted to thank you. You have
been so sweet to me. It has been great getting to know you in the last
two days. You are great to talk to. I will definitely talk to you
anytime that you are on and I Just wanted to tell you that I miss you
and I can't wait to talk to you again...Well hurry up and get on...lol..
Love always, Drew".
I kept thinking he is just too sweet.
Well we continued to talk late nights and during the afternoons when he
got off work. College was also hectic for him so I totally understood
that I couldn't have his full attention. By July I was kind of wondering
what we were so I asked him "Drew exactly what are we?" and he replied
"we are friends" my heart dropped for a second till he spoke again "but
then again friends don't sit around everyday telling them how much they
mean to them, how cute they are, and how much they miss each other when
there not around".
I really wanted to meet this wonderful
creature in person. I mean he lives 30 minutes away from me so I dunno
why we couldn't. One day one of our mutual cyber friends said that we
should all get together and have a fun day at six flags St. Louis. I was
like that would be soo great. She asked me why don't I invite him along,
I told her I didn't have enough guts to ask him, so of course she did
when I wasn't online and he ACTUALLY SAID YES, he even asked should he
pick me up. So I was sooo excited I couldn't believe that this handsome
guy was even interested in me.
So it was set - about twenty of us were
supposed to meet down the road from Six Flags, at a small little
restaurant on July first. Well the morning before we were all supposed
to meet I checked my e-mail once again and I got a e-mail from him which
said "Hey Sweetie, I'm just getting ready to go to class and I thought I
would write you. I really Miss you...that was so sweet what you wrote on
that greeting...There is one more thing that I would like to tell
you....I've been having second thoughts about meeting you....You are
such a wonderful and sweet person, but I just don't think I am ready for
it...sorry for any trouble that that causes you, and I can understand if
you are mad....But I gotta go and I will talk to you later...I miss you
so much...and you do mean so much to me>. Love ya, Drew".
I have never in my life cried over anyone
and never a male. Tears just streamed down my face. I talked to him and
he said it was because he found out that he was leaving for Toronto
Canada to play hockey, and that he just didn't want to meet me and leave
for months and hurt me like that, so we agreed that we would talk all
the time still. Well less and less he got online and when he did he
wasn't the same. He acted like I was his little sister and that I was
just an "online person" and it was not a big deal. One day in September
I got in chat, for the first time in a while because there was no reason
to get on anymore. He happened to be on.
He asked me if I got his e-mail and I
told him no I haven't, he figured that because he said I would normally
write him back. So I asked him "Why what did it say?", he responded "I
was just asking how you were and what I thought of you", I asked "what
exactly do you think of me?", he said he thought I was wonderful and he
couldn't stop thinking about me. I started to get hope so went into chat
for the next couple days and asked if anyone has seen him, everyone
answered no, I have written him e-mails and I never get a reply back.
I gave up going into chat and waiting for
him. Well it's now the end of November and I still think about him all
the time. I Just keep living in this world of mine that maybe just maybe
someday we will bump into each other and just know that we made a
mistake and it will end happily ever after. I know that only happens in
fairy tales but one can wish can't they?