Last year though we had lost communication for 7 whole months. His computer had broken. I had changed my screen name but still kept his screen name in hopes of talking to him again; I knew there was something special about him.
 

Finally in July of last year his name popped up. I was so happy that my cheeks hurt from smiling so much. We had caught up on things that had happened between us and I couldn't believe how each day we talked I liked him more and more.

One day in August Blake told me we needed to talk... I was so scared I thought he was going to tell me he didn't like me anymore. He had told me that as much as he hated doing it online he had to tell me something. I can still remember some of his exact words, he kept saying how each day he thought about me and even though he is in Louisana and i'm in California his feelings for me are so deep, and then finally his last words were I love you Ashleigh. I was in tears! I felt the exact same way.

I couldn't go a day without talking to Blake because even when my day was bad he mad it 10 times better. That night he asked if he could call me. I said yes right away. We had talked on the phone for 4 hours that night and the first time he said I love you on the phone I got chills all through my body and there was just that feeling there that i knew he was my soul mate.

He always tried to brighten my day whenever I was dealing with family things or social things it was so wonderful knowing someone cared for ME so much. Sadly those good times didn't last. In December my grandma whom I was very close with got ill and was put in ICU. Blake had called me every night checking on me and seeing how my grandma was doing. But when my grandma died two days after Christmas Blake didn't know how to handle what I was going through, he had told me that this relationship was a waste of his time. He had started doing drugs and everything. (At the time of my grandma's death he was having MAJOR family problems).

I was heartbroken, here I was grieving my grandma's death and the one person I needed wasn't there for me. Things got better and Blake quit doing drugs but we only talked on a friends level. I had met someone here in California and started dating him. Blake didn't know how to handle that either since I had committed myself to him
for those 2 whole years. I had broken his heart by going out with "Cody." Once again Blake started doing drugs and started treating me like crap. I told myself I'm through with this, it can't be love with someone like this and what if he keeps hurting me. "Cody" and I didn't last long at all and I told Blake that he was the only one for me and I wanted to be with him for the rest of my life - no one would come between us.

So he realized what he was doing was wrong and is trying to clean up for me, but I understand that drug addictions are hard to overcome so I'm supporting him through this 100 percent. We are stronger than ever now and he means the world to me. This November we are going to meet for out first time ever and I can't wait. I can still remember 3 years ago when we were saying "only 2 and a half more years and we can be together." Now its only 4 more months away. Our relationship is secretive family wise for the moment but we know in 4 months everything will be exposed. Once they see us together they will know our love is true. He means the world to me and even though we have had many twists and turns in this relationship, our relationship will hold the best fairy tale ending.

"Ashleigh"